[it's an apology Akira feels like Ichigo doesn't have to give. none of this was his fault, after all. he didn't choose to kill someone; he made a decision in the heat of the moment in self-defense, and that's hardly something he can be blamed for. especially when Akira's choice to kill in their last game was far, far more premeditated]
[what isn't fair is the fact that Ichigo will have to die for the act of defending himself from someone whose intentions were far more sinister. whether they want him to. . . or not]
[but he doesn't say that. with his face buried in Ichigio's (bloody, this is gross) shoulder, all he can in this very moment is grab a firm hold of that warmth, allow himself to lean into and appreciate it, because he knows that he isn't going to have it for much longer]
[okay. chin up, Kurusu. you can't stay like this forever. you've got work to do]
[he sucks in a sharp breath to steel himself, the mental reminder that he can't stay cracked for too long spurring him back into action. and with that, he pulls away, although his hands still rest on Ichigo's shoulders. his expression is stony, but determined]
. . . okay.
[okay. he can do this. he doesn't want to, but he can]
You're hurt. We need to get you cleaned up and your wounds treated.
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[what isn't fair is the fact that Ichigo will have to die for the act of defending himself from someone whose intentions were far more sinister. whether they want him to. . . or not]
[but he doesn't say that. with his face buried in Ichigio's (bloody, this is gross) shoulder, all he can in this very moment is grab a firm hold of that warmth, allow himself to lean into and appreciate it, because he knows that he isn't going to have it for much longer]
[okay. chin up, Kurusu. you can't stay like this forever. you've got work to do]
[he sucks in a sharp breath to steel himself, the mental reminder that he can't stay cracked for too long spurring him back into action. and with that, he pulls away, although his hands still rest on Ichigo's shoulders. his expression is stony, but determined]
. . . okay.
[okay. he can do this. he doesn't want to, but he can]
You're hurt. We need to get you cleaned up and your wounds treated.